Friday, May 08, 2009
You really think you know her?
She might seems like she has a lot of friends, but she is always trying to clear her days out for her best friends around her. But do they cherish? If you couldnt make it, they will simply think that you has too many friends to entertain so you actually didnt put them in ur heart. But they dont know how it hurts when you do care about them, do take time out for them..yet not being mentioned or even cherished in their heart..
She saw them playing so happily there.. Is it because its without her? Does life seems better when someone who is not suppose to be in that group are out of them? She tried her very best ways to be as close.. Yes! She is sorry that she has to much to fulfill outside.. But if you take her as a real friend, and if you really do love her.. You will understand..
She never understand this theory of understanding until she met this guy. He always seems to disappoint her.. in many ways.. Made her wait, Cancled appointments at the very last minute, He made her feel as if she is not being appreciated, He tend to feel that sleeping is more important than going out with her eventho she tried so hard to clear her time out for him.. She felt not appreciated..
But after sometimes, she tend to understand.. She does not get mad that easily when he cancle stuffs at the very last minute.. she does not feel disappointed so easily coz she always think that he has try his best.. I guess.. this happen when u reach the point that u realli take everything about that person. Even if its a -ve point, it appears as it is in ur heart..it does not keep u away from this friend..
It all came back..
Will you understand her too?
Are you sure you will still stand by her when things turn upside down?
She counld not believe but yes, she was facing that herself back in few months ago.. When she had a fight with a friend, no one stood by her.. All her close friends did not give her a hand to held her up.. I guess, they all stood by the opponent.. It was hurting.. very hurting even when she is thinkin bout it again now.. the person who stood by her were those that she didnt take them as important as she took this close group of friends.. Why did they show her love more than u guys do? and yet..She stood there..staring blankly into the sky asking myself.. Who are the true friends? Who are those that she can cry on..? She thought she knows you well, she thought she could share everything.. she thought she knew u longer and that u understand her.. but i guess...
You did not..
If only she could love again, 12:14 AM.
